Monday morning I taught Zumba.  This morning, I couldn’t even get the kids ready for school.  Definitely the most upsetting day since my diagnosis.

Yesterday afternoon Dr. O’Regan told me to stop taking Sorafenib because (I know now) of the pain I was starting to have in my feet.  I was discouraged and considered taking last night’s dose anyway.  Good thing I didn’t because this morning I could not walk.  Searing, burning pain in the bottoms of my feet. Sorafenib rash

12 hours and some pain meds later, I can hobble around.  The rash is still hideous and maddeningly itchy, but slightly better after having missed 2 doses now.

I go in Thursday to find out what comes next.  What a rollercoaster this is.




  1. Gail Joyner says:

    Nicole, do you have the card or poster “What cancer CAN’T do? I sent it to your Mom during her journey. One of the things is “Cancer will never be able to take away the Love and Support you have all around you.” Even in the “yuckiest” of day, I hope you can feel all the angel wings lifting you up in an airy bubble until you have a better day!

  2. Stacy G. says:

    Good luck tomorrow! Glad to hear that you are at least hobbling around now! I think you are one tough cookie!

  3. we are ready and prepared to come help you all out – just let us know and we’ll be there for you. YOU are our #1 priority. Love you so much

  4. Hang in there.

  5. Cancer is not for sissies. Fortunately, you are strong, and brave, and blessed in so many ways. There are hundreds of unseen hearts and hands propping you up as you read this. We love you. There will be good days and some not so good days. But we know YOU CAN DO THIS.